My wonderful husband has been working over in Eureka so I have been a single lady during the week. As lame as it can be to be home alone I have not really cared. Well, last night I had some awful, dreams. This freaked me out! The one that really scared me dealt with someone trying to break into my room & trying to hurt me. On the other side of the door they kept saying "all alone, all alone." I was scared to death when I woke up, to the point of shivering and tears. It was very obvious this was an attack on me, just from the feeling of the dream & what the dreams consisted of and so naturally I called out to God.
I opened up my Bible to Psalm 1, read about half the book and God gave me verse after verse letting me know He was my shield and that I could sleep in peace. With not being able to sleep anyways lately I was especially emotional and could not stop shaking. I jumped in the shower to see if I could calm down and stop shivering. I was calling out to God and thanking Him for all He does and gives and for being my shield. Then in a soft voice that I have never heard was a whisper "You are never alone! I am ALWAYS with you!"
Instantly I started crying and realized that God is always with me and I don't sleep alone ever because He is always right there next to me. I have not been really "feeling" God in the way that I wanted, was kind of being numb, but starving for that "feeling." I have never, at least knowingly, heard God clearly speak to me. This was very obviously God, though.
So, God is my roomie...that's right I have the best room mate ever! He is always here with me, protecting me and my pets. Caring about the fact that I am wanting to hear Him, caring about my shaking body and fearful tears. I still didn't get much sleep and I had every light in the house on with worship music playing, but I had a peace knowing that I had God whispering in my ear and protecting all the was in my house.
It's good to be reminded that God has our back & will never abandon us.
